Having a blog for a year.

Just renewed my domain. Weird to think how much can change in a year. A year ago, I had no clue what this blog would bring me. I only did it because I wanted to pursue my passion for fashion. Then, possibly transition to something I’ve always wanted to do. My end goal for this blog,

Getting people to tell their story. Personally, my favorite form of entertainment is personal and real stories. Great examples of this work is Humans of NY, StoryCorps, and Strangers podcast. I absorb that material like a sponge. There is seriously some things out there you cannot write. Might as well get the best stories straight from the source, am I right?

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I guess that would mean I need to dive deeper into who I am and tell my stories as well. What’s the point of giving a space for encouraging those to reveal their life tales, if you are too afraid to do it too? I wouldn’t say I am wise, nor am I strong. I try to act those things but I know I can only make that character real for so long. I have had some crazy experiences though. Traveling to different countries starting at the age of seven, still learning to love myself and body everyday, accepting there will be those who you love that will be your enemy someday, losing control of your body and how to cope once the nightmare is over, becoming someone you would hate if you ever met them, the difference between “love” and “in love”, understanding you shouldn’t push those away who will show you what there is to love about yourself, and even more.

The purpose of this blog post is to make a public statement. I will still post interviews about people’s clothes. The whole point of that interview bit is if I compliment people on their outfits, I should get to know them better for rich style could also mean rich personality. However, I shall begin transitioning people telling stories about themselves. It could be their happiest memory, their worst memory, their most embarrassing story, if they only had a year to live what would they do, etc.

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I am starting anew because I am moving on to bigger and better things. I have already been accepted as a transfer Communication major student to Cal Poly SLO and UCSB. We’ll see what UCLA and Berkeley decide at the end of this month. Until then, stay tuned for more material. Thank you to whoever has followed my posts so far, I hope it has been fun and entertaining in some form 🙂

Interview #14: Gabby Polhamus

(A person who made my study abroad experience exponentially better, cannot imagine my time without her as my flat mate).

1. When you look back to your childhood, what was your favorite thing to wear and why?

A: Hoodies, because I felt uncomfortable in my own skin so wearing something covered most of my body felt nice, I guess.

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2. Describe what you’re wearing and what do you think people think of you in this outfit?

A: Black jeans, black shirt with pink flowers, and denim jacket. Oh and grey vans because they’re the only shoes I have. I think they think ‘there she go.’ I don’t know what they think, fuck.

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3. Imagine your future in a year from now, what would you hope you have accomplished and what would you be wearing?

A: I’ll have paid off the loan I got to get here. And I’d be wearing sweatshirt, sweatpants, and mild depression.

i love you most.

a few weeks ago,  three interactions made me realize something.

the first one, my boyfriend.

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i was leaving his place to go eat dinner with my family. this relationship is probably the most mature one i’ve had yet. i have a key to his place, i have a toothbrush there, and some pieces of clothes lying around. my home away from home. not only was our union random, but the way it started shoudn’t have been that easy for us. and we definitely should’ve been more cautious going into it. but we weren’t, and everything happened so organically and nothing felt rushed at all. our big foundation was we had plenty of time, when rushing was always my biggest worry due to past problems. and he completely understood. we have fun doing the most basic things, from watching Drake and Josh on the couch to grocery shopping at Sprouts. there’s never a dull moment. anyways,  he walked me to my car and he held my hand until we got to my vehicle. i turned away from Hermia (yes, that is my car’s name, in honor of Midsummer Night’s Dream) and looked up at my big friendly giant boyfriend to be kissed quickly by him, “got ya!” stealing kisses is his specialty, so are silly voices. he tells me to have fun and he’ll see me soon. as he walks away i say love you. he responds i love you more. i shout back i love you most. he shakes his head side to side as he yells back No!

the second one, my mom.

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i was leaving the restaurant where i met up with my mom and dad. we ate Persian food, the culture my dad descends from and I am half of. we had a lovely time trying this new hole in a wall, to the point where we plan on having this be our new place. they had tender steak kabobs, perfectly cooked rice, and the spices mixed well to satisfy any foodie. my dad left early to go on a walk, while my mom and i stayed behind for some hot tea. we talked about her tennis match and the rest of my day. it was peaceful and comfortable. of course, a few jokes and teasing were added to make light of the mood. i am known as my mom’s twin, clone, the blondes. whatever fits the day, i am always paired with my mom. and who wouldn’t like to be? i love my mom. thus, when we parted ways to our cars i started to holler at her i love you. she responded i love you more. i curiously shouted back i love you most. she laughed as she responded No!

the third one, my best friend

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i was driving back to my boyfriend’s because I accidentally left my textbook behind. i decide to call my best friend who now goes to school up north. we met through our college tennis team and we were inseparable. we went through a period where we carpooled together to school, even though she and i lived a huge gap of time away. that’s when we bonded the most. we lip synched to songs we showed each other, with too many of them being claimed as our songs. when she left, it was hard for us both. phone calls remained our consistent connection, and we would talk long enough that the distance didn’t matter. all that mattered was we were still there for each other, no matter what. to bring this all back, she answered and we fell into our old habits of jokes then telling each other what we did today. i pulled up to my boyfriend’s house and told her i had to go. i sadly said i love you. she insisted i love you more. i confidently confirmed i love you most. she giggled and shouted from my phone’s speaker NOPE!

why am i sharing this? because, there are points in life where you feel unloved or alone. i have definitely felt like that in my life. at this point however, i have created strong relationships with people i am truly grateful for. i have felt in the past people taking advantage of my compassion, and when they would say they loved me, i knew it didn’t compare to how much i cared for them. i have cut those people out of my life and others should too. it does get hard because those emotional drainers realize how important you were to feed their idea of themselves, so they’ll say/do anything to keep you near. if that is the case, watch out for yourself and stay strong. because one day, you will find yourself surrounded by people who live closely by your moral compass. and another day will come, when your wholehearted love will be met with theirs evenly.

Interview #13: Julia Tasedan

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1. When you look back to your childhood, what was your favorite thing to wear and why?

A:  Snake shirt was probably the coolest thing I owned, I was born on the year of the snake, so like, represent. And it was a new piece which was nice because I mainly wore things that were secondhand.

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2. Describe what you’re wearing and what do you think people think of you in this outfit?

A: I would think that people think this girl likes turtle necks *laughs*. I’m definitely more vintage prone. I definitely notice I get more looks when I wear heels so I don’t know what that means.

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3. Imagine your future in a year from now, what would you hope you have accomplished and what would you be wearing?

A: Something sexy but not slutty–I wouldn’t mind being in a relationship in a year from now. I have no plans academically except finishing my 3rd year of college.

Interview #12: Bryson Burns

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1. When you look back to your childhood, what was your favorite thing to wear and why?

A: Plaid because I can wear two different types of plaid. I would dress very eclectic and bright.

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2. Describe what you’re wearing and what do you think people think of you in this outfit?

A: Well I’m wearing long socks that are rolled down, and khaki shorts, with a blue white and brown striped shirt. I personally brought this shirt because I thought it looked British. I would want people to think I’m British. Honestly, I think people think I’m ready for bed… and I am. It’s 1 Am man.

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3. Imagine your future in a year from now, (somebody from that future visits you in the present) what would you hope you have accomplished and what would you be wearing?

A: I hope I’ve written at least ten more songs, I’d hope I also met people that um influence me in positive ways. Another thing, probably have a set plan on an university or music. I hope I’d be wearing something… probably my boots with jeans and a tshirt because I love that look.

Interview #11: Jade Sta Ana

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1. When you look back to your childhood, what was your favorite thing to wear and why?

A: I loved this denim mini skirt with a butterfly on it, I loved to wear heels that didn’t match. They were wedges, and they had blue and white polka dots on it. But I liked that it didn’t match and I killed it anyways. Whenever Britney Spears came on, like Slave 4 You, I’d rock that outfit.

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2. Describe what you’re wearing and what do you think people think of you in this outfit?

A: Homeless, I am wearing a navy blue pull over that I washed too many times, leggings where the elastic doesn’t even work anymore, and really nice nikes. People think that I’m homeless but I’m dope homeless

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3. Imagine your future in a year from now, (somebody from that future visits you in the present) what would you hope you have accomplished and what would you be wearing?
A: A year from now I’d hope to be better at writing, writing more poetry, and doing more things to pursue my career as an elementary school teacher. I’d be wearing apple bottom jeans, boots with the fur.