After I came back from studying abroad, I hit the ground running. I have never really disclosed things I am involved with to my readers, but I am definitely not bored. I was president of two different honors groups, a determined sales associates at a boutique, in love with someone whose not in the country, and working hard to keep my GPA high for UC level.
As of now, I have resigned from presidency from one of those honors groups, quit my job, and I have moved on from my long distance relationship. However, I have an internship providing web content, working for the school I attend, and sent in all my applications waiting to hear back from a 4-year University. Why am I filling you all in on this?
Was I expecting so much change within such a short period of time? Absolutely not. And the unfortunate thing is, the end of each one came to play with the other. It really makes me think maybe if I didn’t give up on one thing, maybe this domino effect wouldn’t have occurred. By all means, I am not sure how to feel about all this change. I am happy, but sometimes I miss it.
You gotta take in the good with the bad. Sometimes, you’re not going to always feel secure. You gotta make a choice, and each choice you make will probably not be easy. And when you make that choice, you need to be ready for change. Keep your expectations level-headed because you need to meet it in the middle, high expectations and low expectations are hard enough to grasp when you’re trying to stay grounded.
Make smart mistakes now, so you won’t live a stupid life.
I wrote this draft 16 days ago, before I even put in my two weeks, ended things with my ex, and the school semester ended. Damn, I cannot believe how much can change in over 2 weeks. Yes, 4 days ago was my last day at work. Yes, I am no longer with my ex. I have a whole month until the new semester starts to myself. Which means my new job doesn’t start until school starts. What am I gonna do? Well, I’m gonna start creatively writing again. I’m going to finish the books I’ve meant to finish. I’m gonna start my kickboxing classes again. With all the choices and expectations you need to make in life, there’s one thing you should do and that’s exercising your freedom for self-growth.
I guess the thing I want my readers to know from this piece is, don’t be afraid to make the right choice for yourself. It is hard to clearly see what is right for you when there’s other people or even groups involved, but you can only lie to yourself for so long. Will it be scary to know that maybe you’re only choice to be happy is to completely let go of a relationship, a job, or/and leadership position? Yes, it is entirely. However, if it is stealing your happiness, you won’t even realize how good it is to have that weight off of you until you say goodbye. Trust me, it feels good.
And who knows, maybe it’s not that at all. Maybe you actually loved what you were doing, but another opportunity came up and you would be an idiot to deny that open door. If you’re working part-time for example, this job probably isn’t your dream job. It’s just a stepping stone to the mainland. Saying goodbye to any chapter of your life is scary, but that’s what makes life so exciting too. Because you are officially turning to the next page and writing the new chapter. It’s fresh, it’s new, and that’s what we all should strive for.
Expect more blog posts this upcoming month my lovelies.